I am a bit pissed.
Not at franky or jonah-aka wierd-ass-mofo..
I am mad at you thought for one fucking second that i was about to hurt you or cause you any harm over thinking that i would get angry at you! Honost-fucking-lee!
I am angry it took you 4 days to tell me, AND I HAD TO FIND OUT FOR MY-FUCKING-SELF!!!
" i was goin to tell you, but you where going to get mad!"
No I wasnt. Don't assume things...
but if we are playing that game
If JOnah ready to Fuck a 15 year old??
] Just assuming because he was with laura and also sex deprived. also said alot of " In time..."
Don't hold me Accontable *sarcastic
I am assuming..
and would your mother care that your dating a 18 year old grade 12 that is graduating this year?..and still a virgin?
and everyone is asking me! ME out of all FUCKING PEOPLE ME!
" isnt she a lesbian??"
,,, this seems to be Paul all over again..
Gay the the begginning of the year..
but when someone intreseting someone else likes comes along..... they are bi!
Paul liked laura. JOnah was intreseted in laura... see
anyway. Angry no. Just stating my opionon. and i hope you get mad at me. So you feel what I was suppost to feel.
I am not a threat! I am not a Girl to seek revenge! I am not that fucking girl!!...
I am not getting suspened over this crap again because
" i thought she was going to hurt me" CRAP!
wonder why i am saying this.
Kept it all bottled in.
and thanks to Jess...Pilips beautiful hunny-cups. She made me open my eyes with a heart to heart talk.
I felt my age again.
I felt 19 again and an adult. I felt i had somthing on my mind OTHER then Fucking Jonah.
I DO NOT FUCKING WANT YOU ANYMORE!,..
your tainted. and no way in F'in hell you would want me.
I am over you, I am over Alex...
'
And you know what?... I am sick of this Sober thing.
I stopped drinking and doing whatever "drugs" I was on, FOR YOU!.. You didnt fucking care. you shrug all my efforts off.
and when this relationship falls, its Deffinitly not me YOUR coming too!..Both of you. I could care less.
I tried to ask myself.,
"why doesnt he like me?"
and do to some realizations, and my old habit of exsamining people. I noticed.
MY thoughts(svae mysself there) ;
1. I am not 15
2. I am not 5 feet tall
3. I am not 100 or less pounds.
4. I am not White
5. i am not in grade 10, or 11.
6. I am not simissive
7. i don't look like I am a 10 year old with 18 year old breats.
8. i do not live with parental ristrictions.
And if you have a problem with this, then you should consider what FUCKING Examples I have!!! Franky and linzy.
Laura was the only one with about the same weight size as me, or near too it.
but i bet you its because..
I am wierd.
I am controlling
I am condacending.
I take things to heart ( like anyother fucking godamed woman in the world)
i have personalities out the window that seem to pop out of anywhere.....
I must be crazy..
Nope, i am just black, and native...
brought up in a fucking getto, living off nothing and just got kicked off off welfair because i didnt prove i was on it!
I am not mad, I am not angry..
frustrated.
You can't even answer a simple question....
if you didnt read it before..
" WHT THE HELL DID YOU SAY NO!?"..
Now you wont answer it because i said all this, but it doesnt hurt to say no.
But why ??
so you can sit back, thinking i am just a Jelouse Bitch-crazy-Niger.
but I have feelings under this Indepent stature. And when you complained TO ME that your lonely and want some, and need someone specail!...Who was there huh??..
Who loved you?
Who cared so much?
Who fucking cried??
WHo wanted you to hold you so close?? huh?
Stupid questions eh?... nope. fuck off.
wait, shove off...right?
I loose. I fail..or just plain Fail!..
I couldnt crack you, I couldnt know you well enough. I couldnt be that girl you wanted. but why? fucking why?..
Jelouse.,... no!..
Your not worth it anymore.
your my friend. Maybe. after you read this you might think twice. But holy shit. man.
why did you do this to me?
Yes you did this to me! don't say you didn't...
you didnt tell me why?...
you even said u also hate it when they say no! Why Be a hyporcrite right now?
No I am the Hyp eh?
Saying Sober forever.
Saying I'll back off.
so on and so fucking forth..
I understand my mistakes.
and don't you DARE say to me
:" you have no right to say that"
" you are just jelouse"
" Your such a bitch!!"
" He doesnt deserve this!"
" Your crazy"
" Its perfectly legal" is it moral?
" Fuck off"
because i can see them coming a mile away... staryotypical coments... come on. bring it... somthing original!
" Janelle you have something wrong with you, your grudges go so deep I think you might need meidcal attenition. We can't be friends anymore.. and well, your just a bitch who can't let things go. Not sorry, Don't talk to me anymore, or I will go to the Office. leave me and franky alone. Or i will Punch you out."
....Taaa-daaa! future be told! The truth is a fucking bitch eh?
I congerd that little bit out of Pure understanding of my own actions... so Fuck you and the horse you road in on!
Ps: not angry, just pissed off
Ps: Thank you Jess
Ps's's's's's: Love you long time Janice Philip and all the gales I made up with. *meow
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I'm just glad I could help a bit, hopefully...... We have to start hanging out more, give me a call or text anytime. Love you.
Listen, Janelle, it didn't take me 4 days to tell you. I was going to tell you that day, Wednesday, but you came to me first. I DIDN'T see you at all before you found me. He only asked me out on Monday. Since I wasn't at school Tuesday, I didn't get the chance to tell you at all. Except, obviously, during class that day. I wasn't about to tell you during class, because I really wasn't sure how you'd react. I don't mean for this to sound angry, I'm just telling you that I didn't get the chance to really tell you.
Don't blame me. I did nothing to you except refuse. You asked a question, I answered, and the rest is all on you.
You wanted a reason?
I DIDN'T WANT TO.
There's your reason.
Now STOP insulting me,
STOP treating me like a pariah
and STOP trying to take me apart because you CAN'T, and you know it.
I won't pick apart your statements except for one thing:
"1. I am not 15
2. I am not 5 feet tall...etc."
Do you WANT me to start mocking you? You couldn't come up with a less obvious way of making me look like a shallow jackass? Well, you can't, because I'm NOT A SHALLOW JACKASS.
You are acting like a petulant teenager, the thing you hate most. I know you'll be mad at me for pointing it out, but that doesn't change the fact that you're doing it.
I'm not going to get mad, and I'm not going to fall into acting like you want me to act.
OK, venting.
Sorry. I don't say that a lot anymore, but I'm sorry for what what you've gone through as a result of my decision. However, I am not sorry for my decision.
By the way, I would have never, will not now, and will never call you a jealous bitch. But I will tell you when you are treating others badly.
i love you janellykins!
honestly,if i was gay,i'd prolly date you,lol, *is a submissive bitch* XD okay so im not gonna say
who i am because i dont want all ppl to know im a submissive bitch....but i'll tell you who am i am though.lol
LOVE YOU!
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